So.. I started reading this book by Larry Winget that I borrowed from a friend. The name of the book is called You’re Broke Because You Want to Be. I have read the introduction and the first chapter. WOW. This dude really makes you stop and analyze what you are doing and why you are doing it. I think I am the queen of procrastination and excuses of why I cant or shouldn’t do something. What it boils down to is I am LAZY. There is absolutely no reason that I still have a basket of clean laundry sitting in my bedroom from last week not put away. There is no reason that I still have dishes in my sink from this morning. There is no reason whatsoever that I haven’t finished this mod with school, or that I haven’t stayed up with my divorce class, or my project list. I could take this list on and on… but it would all end the same. All of these things will end with because I am LAZY! I have time to lay in bed and scroll facebook or pinterest or email. I have time to watch TV. I have time to sit on the couch and do absolutely nothing. So what is stopping me from being productive. This guy totally hit the nail on the head when he said I was broke because I want to be. Because if I really didn’t want to be then I would get off of my lazy behind and get things accomplished.
Today I went back to list making. Things I need and want to get accomplished today. I am going to do my very best to get them done. I have made excuses and felt sorry for myself for way to long. I am where I am because I got myself here. There is NO ONE to blame but ME. And guess what… there is only ONE person who can change where I am at and what I am doing. It surely isn’t you, so who does that leave. ME! ME! and ME!
I cant call my friends to the rescue… well I have a couple that no matter how much I mess up will always be there for me… but neither of them will let me shirk responsibility of my choices. The both tell me that I am where I am because of the choices that I have made and I am the only one who can change that. I am the one that has to make better choices.
Our choices affect every aspect of our lives. Our eating habits affect our weight and overall health. If I put crap in my mouth, what do I expect my body to do with it. It is going to make my body look and feel like crap. If I change my hair color to purple then what is it going to look like. Every action has a reaction. Whether it be physical, mental, emotional; it is still a reaction.
My choice of making a list this morning has left me feeling somewhat accomplished this afternoon because I have been able to see the things that I wanted and needed to get done and mark them off the list. In turn that choice made me feel good about myself as I was able to knock things off the list. Don’t get me wrong there are things that still need to be done, but at the end of the day what I didn’t accomplish today I can move to tomorrow’s list.
Baby steps. Today I am thankful for baby steps. No matter how slowly I move I will be ok as long as I am moving forward.