My blog is meant to be a story of my life. The past few years have been pretty rough. Divorce, attempted suicide, starting over and over and over again. I am sincerely CHASING SERENITY in my life. I want the peace and quiet of my soul. I started this blog after my whole life was turned upside down. The man I thought was supposed to be the absolute love of my life, my forever so to speak, came home one night after disappearing for hours and said that he was still in love with someone else. Coincidentally over the next few months as the truths started coming out he had kept constant contact with her the entire time we were married. I felt like every ounce of my serenity had just been taken. Over the next few months, everything just kind of came crashing and I sincerely felt as if I was chasing any serenity I could find. Any type of peace I could find period. It didn’t matter where I got it from I just needed to feel like I could breathe. This blog was supposed to be an accounting of me seeking that serenity. How I found it (so far I haven’t), but I refuse to give up. I keep starting over. I have been told several times that it is not about how many times you fall it is all about how many times you stand back up. I am choosing to stand on that and keep standing up. I may never truly find serenity in this life, but I will keep chasing it and hoping to find it if not in this life in the next.